Journal #3-Venting,

Sometimes I feel as if you don't believe in me as much as you should. I don't think you realize that I'm not one of those "typical" teenage girls that wants to hang out with the "cool" crowd. I don't give in to the bad peer pressure and school is my number one priority. I don't have much interest in boys yet and just the thought of drugs scares me. I have a good head on my shoulders and I obey you all time. I don't give you attitude and although sometimes I don't agree with some of your rules, I follow them. So, why do you treat me like I'm 5 when I hang out with my friends?! I don't need a bed time!!! How do you expect me to go to sleep at 9 when I'm not even tired?! & You don't have to call reminding me to say "thank you" or to brush my teeth. You would think I'm old enough to know to do that on my own. I'm fine! Don't worry about me, if something goes wrong, you would be the first person I would call. Don't worry about ever losing touch with your daughter cause I will eventually tell you whats going on with my life. I can't hide anything from you! Can't you see?! You're always gonna be my mother and I like having that open communication with you. But don't force me to tell you things when I'm not ready to. You'll find out eventually. I am a good girl mom, why can't you see that?! You're lucky that you don't have to deal with me wanting to talk to you about going on birth control pills or wanting to have a boyfriend meet you. I don't have the normal teen problems. What you have to face with me, other mothers wish they could face! So cut me some slack...my grades are decent and I have goals! I wish you could give me some words of encouragement. I tell you, "mom i'm gonna move to new york and be on broadway" and what do you tell me, "dream big! what are the odds of that?!". Alright, thanks for ruining my dreams. Whatever. I love you and I always will. But I'm fine right now, and you know that If I do ever need to talk to someone I will come to you. I'm good.